I try to live my life with the motto of “treat others how you want to be treated.” But that phrase often morphs into “treat others how they have treated you” and I feel like that shows how the people I care most about treat me. When they are rude to me, when they make fun of something for the purpose of hurting me, the constant jabs that try to lower my self esteem, or even when they avoid replying to my attempts of keeping a relationship going for days on end, I find that I end up mirroring the disrespect that they have shown me because my brain processes that however my loved ones treat me is okay, even if it’s wrong. And that is not right. I need to start caring for my mental and emotional health and that means cutting out the people who constantly bring me down, even if it’s family, out of my life. I can’t deal with the emotional turmoil anymore.